Thursday, May 3, 2012

Is it 7 or 8?

I want to say it's been 8 days of juicing since I started last Thursday. I personally think I should get to start counting on that day but technically I guess the first day isn't actually part of the tally. Who made up that rule- it's the same with paydays. Ugh.

What does it matter? It's just a day. Well, I'll tell you... it's 24 hours of my life in which I'm constantly bargaining with myself to hold out for another hour, just make it to noon, just make it to dinner. I win the fight but the battle continues. My mind just won't shut up.

I have lost some more weight, that's a good thing. I am having an unusual amount of aching and although that seems like a bad thing; everything I've read says that it's toxins leaving my system. Guess I've just gotta suck it up and be tough.

I keep telling myself, "the health benefits are worth it- just hang in there for a little longer. If you feel this obsessed at dinner time than go ahead and eat some veggies". When dinner time rolls around I say, "you've made it this far- you can make it a little longer, just hold out to breakfast". You get the idea, constantly offering myself rewards that I don't have any intention of making good on. lol.

All of my 'rewards' consist of my favorite snacks- things like edamame or better yet, POPCORN!! I want it so bad, and not just any ole popcorn. I want to go to the movies and have their popcorn. Crunch on it mindlessly while my brains take a break and I'm able to lose myself in Hollywood's idea of life.

Random note:  The last few nights I have had the strangest dream about cheeseburgers! A "5 Guys" cheeseburger to be exact. Crammed with jalapenos and a swipe of mayo, oh, and cajun fries on the side.
Now, I haven't eaten a cheeseburger since before last September when I started my first Reboot. In fact, the only meat I've eaten is about 4 bites of chicken and ugh... just not worth it!
So you see that the cheeseburger dream is disturbing. It leaves me wondering how my stomach would do. I'm guessing Tums would be my friend for the night. haha

Alright, I've rambled enough and it's all fairly senseless so I'll let you all get back to your lives :P